Sunday, November 13, 2005
hais..in an extremely malicous twist of fate,im swingin single again..
my birthday on friday had been a much anticipated one by non other than me,and that day certainly did not disappoint me..what more could i have asked for,when my most precious one spent half the day with despite nursin a fever and headache?..
little did i know that all the elation was all but a revoltin prelude to what was to come the very next day..
hais..thrown down from cloud nine into immense sadness and intolerable lonliness..my heart pulverised,my dreams galvanised..
today has been nothin short of meaningless for me..but juz in case ure interested to know,downin beer doesnt alleviate ur pain,not even for a split second even if u drink till hoverin on the verge of bein knocked outta ur sense and gettin drunk..
now i know..im a bloody fucked up bastard..i finally know..
i tried to kill my overwhelmin boredom and heartache by listenin to songs..but even then,i was brought to tears..
bon jovi~all bout lovin you
leean rimes~how do i live without you
tao zhe~ai hen jian dan
american idols ensemble~when you tell me that you love me
my greatest regret before leavin (if i really do)..
not bein able to see u for the very last time..
wrote this letter a few days back,though it aint finished..
somehow,nostalgia seems to have overwhelmed me these days as i often,sometimes sub-conciously,drift into reminiscing about the past five months.Minutes before i started penning this letter,i was clutching the brown file u bought me,embracing meows and froggie and holding the two postcards u had given me as i read them intently,especially the very first one u wrote me on our very first week together.
"love at first sight"was initially ridiculous to me,but the fictitious perception i had of it was dispelled after having gotten to know u.the strong affinity i had with u and never before with anyone else was the strongest indication of many more happy and memorable moments we'd share together in days to come.for the first time,my intuition did not fail me.
"aww..ure my dearest laogong,of course ure special!and im glad that u felt that way!in a sense,i could at least say i have someone special belonging to me.."this was the first time u addressed me so affectionately,and i still vividly remember the warm feeling that enveloped me when i received that sms on 070605 at 20:14:52.."
ive so much more to say to u,but its all choked back behind tears now..
id plan for ur last 44 days to be a very special one,all for u..but i wont have the honours of makin it all happen now,i guess..hais..
I wanna call the stars down from the sky
I wanna live a day that never dies
I wanna change the world only for you
All the impossible i wanna do
I wanna hold you close under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile and feel your pain
I know it's beautiful looking at you
You're in a world of lies, you are the truth
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
I wanna make you see just what i wantS
how you that lonliness and what it does
You walked into my life to stop my tears
Everything is easy now, I have you here
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
In a world without you (Without you)
I will always hunger
All i need is true love to make me stronger
Yeaa......
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
When you tell me that you love me
my birthday on friday had been a much anticipated one by non other than me,and that day certainly did not disappoint me..what more could i have asked for,when my most precious one spent half the day with despite nursin a fever and headache?..
little did i know that all the elation was all but a revoltin prelude to what was to come the very next day..
hais..thrown down from cloud nine into immense sadness and intolerable lonliness..my heart pulverised,my dreams galvanised..
today has been nothin short of meaningless for me..but juz in case ure interested to know,downin beer doesnt alleviate ur pain,not even for a split second even if u drink till hoverin on the verge of bein knocked outta ur sense and gettin drunk..
now i know..im a bloody fucked up bastard..i finally know..
i tried to kill my overwhelmin boredom and heartache by listenin to songs..but even then,i was brought to tears..
bon jovi~all bout lovin you
leean rimes~how do i live without you
tao zhe~ai hen jian dan
american idols ensemble~when you tell me that you love me
my greatest regret before leavin (if i really do)..
not bein able to see u for the very last time..
wrote this letter a few days back,though it aint finished..
somehow,nostalgia seems to have overwhelmed me these days as i often,sometimes sub-conciously,drift into reminiscing about the past five months.Minutes before i started penning this letter,i was clutching the brown file u bought me,embracing meows and froggie and holding the two postcards u had given me as i read them intently,especially the very first one u wrote me on our very first week together.
"love at first sight"was initially ridiculous to me,but the fictitious perception i had of it was dispelled after having gotten to know u.the strong affinity i had with u and never before with anyone else was the strongest indication of many more happy and memorable moments we'd share together in days to come.for the first time,my intuition did not fail me.
"aww..ure my dearest laogong,of course ure special!and im glad that u felt that way!in a sense,i could at least say i have someone special belonging to me.."this was the first time u addressed me so affectionately,and i still vividly remember the warm feeling that enveloped me when i received that sms on 070605 at 20:14:52.."
ive so much more to say to u,but its all choked back behind tears now..
id plan for ur last 44 days to be a very special one,all for u..but i wont have the honours of makin it all happen now,i guess..hais..
I wanna call the stars down from the sky
I wanna live a day that never dies
I wanna change the world only for you
All the impossible i wanna do
I wanna hold you close under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile and feel your pain
I know it's beautiful looking at you
You're in a world of lies, you are the truth
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
I wanna make you see just what i wantS
how you that lonliness and what it does
You walked into my life to stop my tears
Everything is easy now, I have you here
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
In a world without you (Without you)
I will always hunger
All i need is true love to make me stronger
Yeaa......
And baby, every time you touch me, I become a hero
I'll make you safe no matter where you are
And bring you anything you ask for, nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me
When you tell me that you love me