Friday, August 05, 2005
*sigh*..itz one of those days where u wanna get everything off ur chest,vent all ur frustration,dispell all the loneliness and purge out all sense of sorrow thats been grippin u for goodness knows how long,yet u dont know how to get the ball rollin..
woke up this mornin dreadin havin to go to school,all the more so since we're gonna have our econs common test today..thank goodness the test wasnt as difficult as i had initially expected,though i dont think i'll do very well,as i have always been..dandy mandy and jade kinda kept me laughin like a lunatic durin bio tutorial and gp lesson..it sorta made me forget about my troubles,but everything came rushin back to me at once when the final bell rang to signal the end of school..
receivin ur sms durin maths tutorial informin me that u were sick made me worried..that explains why i called u immediately after school ended to make sure u're fine..that sense of worry evolved into a sense of depression when i heard the curt and unforgivin voice speakin to me on the other end of the line..i've apologised for sayin what i said and makin u feel what u felt..it juz struck me hard when u said u 'cant be bothered about it' and that we should go on being cold and hostile to each other.addin that u're 'fine with it' and that i'll soon 'get used to it'..*sigh*..i was juz bein honest with u when i said what i said..and i thought that u could at least appreciate that..u cooked up a big lie--in fact,not one,but three glarin lies that i only found out after much probin on the monday followin the end of ur term exams,but i got over it by the end of the day..knowin that compromise is the key..i was willin to do so then,though it was a very big issue,so why cant u now,furthermore for such a small one?..*sigh*..
itz hard not to think about it,really..as much as i try hard not to,my fragile mind somehow drifts off in that direction no matter when and where..this may sound inconceivable,but the underlyin reason's as simple as the fact that u're someone special to me,even if the entire world doesnt care two hoots about u..
there's so much more i wanna say..but i juz cant put it in words..
*sigh*..another long weekend..
tomorrow's supposed to be a special occasion..seems like whether it'll happen or not is still an uncertainty now..
dearest god,i'll do anything juz for everything that's been torn to be mended and cracked to be sealed..
juz for u..
woke up this mornin dreadin havin to go to school,all the more so since we're gonna have our econs common test today..thank goodness the test wasnt as difficult as i had initially expected,though i dont think i'll do very well,as i have always been..dandy mandy and jade kinda kept me laughin like a lunatic durin bio tutorial and gp lesson..it sorta made me forget about my troubles,but everything came rushin back to me at once when the final bell rang to signal the end of school..
receivin ur sms durin maths tutorial informin me that u were sick made me worried..that explains why i called u immediately after school ended to make sure u're fine..that sense of worry evolved into a sense of depression when i heard the curt and unforgivin voice speakin to me on the other end of the line..i've apologised for sayin what i said and makin u feel what u felt..it juz struck me hard when u said u 'cant be bothered about it' and that we should go on being cold and hostile to each other.addin that u're 'fine with it' and that i'll soon 'get used to it'..*sigh*..i was juz bein honest with u when i said what i said..and i thought that u could at least appreciate that..u cooked up a big lie--in fact,not one,but three glarin lies that i only found out after much probin on the monday followin the end of ur term exams,but i got over it by the end of the day..knowin that compromise is the key..i was willin to do so then,though it was a very big issue,so why cant u now,furthermore for such a small one?..*sigh*..
itz hard not to think about it,really..as much as i try hard not to,my fragile mind somehow drifts off in that direction no matter when and where..this may sound inconceivable,but the underlyin reason's as simple as the fact that u're someone special to me,even if the entire world doesnt care two hoots about u..
there's so much more i wanna say..but i juz cant put it in words..
*sigh*..another long weekend..
tomorrow's supposed to be a special occasion..seems like whether it'll happen or not is still an uncertainty now..
dearest god,i'll do anything juz for everything that's been torn to be mended and cracked to be sealed..
juz for u..